i've always been this way .
mysteriously transparent . knowingly self-centered . confused . yet willing , somehow . willing to open myself to all of you without caring about your rejection . your questions . your disapproval .
i've always been this way .
evolved ? sure . still me ? definitely . a lot has changed , yeah . i am deeply rooted in my purpose now . i am directly responsible for the well being of another human life . every single choice i make has to have my best interests in mind because they are tied to the interests of another . i no longer have time for fear or indecision . immobility . amateur-ity (i made that up , but it rolls off the tongue like it's always been a word so shrug) . . .
allow me to reintroduce myself to you .
let me direct you to the first page of this blog . read it in full & take me out of it . insert yourself into my perspective . connect . fucking feel something , then re-read this post .
i
have
always
been
this
way .
the person pushing you to confront . the person forcing you to explain . the person convincing you that you are incredible .
how many times
can i tell you who YOU are
before you start to understand
exactly
who
I
am ?
lemme start from the beginning .
i started this blog so many years ago during the break up of a romantic relationship . here i am now lost in the emotion of another type of break up with the same person , cursing myself for not heeding my feelings & words back then . i shouldn't have stuck around to continue to be misunderstood after so many years of so-called understanding .
i can no longer prove my worth to the worthless . my truth lies here within these posts . where is yours ?
cuz see . . .
i've always been me .
praying you begin to find you .
cheers to the end of an era . luckily , the best thing about the book of life - it never runs out of chapters . don't be afraid to flip the fucking page .