hello . remember me ? . . . long story short , that feeling i felt way back when . . . that inner voice that made this blog necessary . . . well , i feel it again . somewhere deep inside of me that old feeling of discovery , and questioning , and insecurity , and overall indifference toward humanity has been shaken awake and . . . well . this is all i know . it took me months to remember my login for this ill begotten blog , but today it happened and for good reason . long story short : i'm a practicing buddhist now and this was the first time that i cried like a baby during guided meditation . if i knew the reason for that outburst i wouldn't be here right now . but , i am . so , let's begin . again . missed you .