20070822

and u say LA city . . .



the roxy 1nce again .
2morrow (thurs) , 8 . 23 . 07 .
please .
thanks .

20070818

born again .



today i am one year older & that much closer to bein thirty , so i am happy & ready to celebrate .
i will do so with my partner in crime (who happened to give me the best bday gift ever !) , brook d'leau , mr garth trinidad , & shauhn-ski at kcrw from 8-9pm
&
after that
who knows what fun trouble i'll get myself into .
while i would like to thank my parents for breedin such a strange child
i would also like to thank u for bearin with me for the past ten months by givin u a lil bday present straight from J*DaVeY's big heart :

***********

just in case u haven't gotten it yet .

enjoy urselves in the land of the lost . . .

20070817

the art of slowing down .

it's been a long while & i'm sure you're just as over me as i am . the past couple weeks have been a blur of me tryin to figure out exactly who i am as an artist & how to relay that to the business people who are out to exploit me . no . i'm not turnin into lauryn hill just yet . i'm not freakin out & changin my mind abt everything . i'm just realizin that this game is simply a test of inner strength . "never let em see u sweat" should be ringin in my head everytime i open my mouth to say anything , but as an emotionally impulsive leo i have a hard time bitin my tongue . since people generally have a hard time dealin with strong minded females i've been tryin to learn how to cool my jets & just go with the flow , all the while remainin head strong without compromisin great opportunities & castrating the men that i work with . so , in efforts to maintain a level head i've removed myself from my business & vowed to stay creative .

oh , how that creativity always comes with a catch .

there's people to answer to & wait for . there's hardly enough money . there's never enough time . on the eve of my 26th bday i'm runnin around like a chicken with my fuckin head cut off tryin to direct those who are helpin us flesh out our creativity . i'm tryin to spend time with my neglected best friend , & find replacement parts for a cuisinart blender i broke inna fit of margarita madness . i'm tryin to do my laundry , which wasn't such a difficult task till i blindly mistook the bleach for the fabric softener , hence , a disgusting mess of blotchy black dresses that i wasn't really ready to sacrifice just yet . i have 2 mtgs back to back . gotta finish my "homework" assignment for the director of our live concert film . gotta pick up my friends keys . need to pick up money from beverly hills . was supposed to meet up with my family in palm springs for a special bday dinner , but my career calls , so r & r is a dream deferred . blah blah blah , nobody cares to hear u complain today briana . this is the bed you've made , so roll around in it .

no .
i have not learned the art of slowing down
&
i probably won't until people stop carin abt who i am & what i do .
i did , however , slow down to write this little blurb just so u know that i haven't completely fallen off the wagon just yet .
but
who knows what will happen .

spirit broken ? maybe .
but who cares ?