20081130

tons to tell . . .



no possible way to say it all . my entire being feels as though it's been tossed around like a rag doll ; i'm in a creative state of dark despair & brutal self-awareness . i'm over thinking every single detail . every line . phrase . i'm managing to create more rules & corners for myself to hide inside . hmm . . . i guess this is what they call writer's block ?

20081126

after u give thanks . . .

come work off the tryptophan high with Black Morris !



gobble gobble .

20081125

if u have nothing nice 2 say . . .

u know the rest .

since some of u can't play nicely
i will no longer allow ppl to comment on my posts.

u know i have a big EGO
&
this blog is all abt ME
&
what I like / feel / hate / etc at the moment .
a few folks have come to MY space
&
attempted to make this experience all abt themselves . . .
some of u have been rude
&
petty to ur fellow MAYHEM readers
&
i will no longer continue to support such disregard for mine
&
other readers' opinions .

so
there
it
is .

we'll continue this discussion when i'm done with portland .

as
u
were . . .

20081121

*swooooon*



i adore these ladies
&
their line ! . . . apparently , my fave fasion site hearts them too !

c l a s s i c .












parra is major .

f i e r c e .






Andrea Klarin does Grace Jones .

20081120

welcome 2 our world .



baby oh baby
get ready for a beautiful life .
not only have u got a pretty cool godmom
but
you've got 2 of the coolest parents ever .

here's a groovy mix i made for u . now others can enjoy it too . . .

<< t r a c k l i s t i n g >>

1 . white rabbit . . . . . . . . . . jefferson airplane
2 . oh yeah . . . . . . . . . . can
3 . breathe . . . . . . . . . . pink floyd
4 . what is & what should never be . . . . . . . . . . led zepellin
5 . going up . . . . . . . . . . echo & the bunnymen
6 . moon turn the tides , gently gently . . . . . . . . . . jimi hendrix
7 . brakhage . . . . . . . . . . stereolab
8 . lovers of today . . . . . . . . . . the pretenders
9 . anything goes demo . . . . . . . . . . J*DaVeY
10 . black betty . . . . . . . . . . kudu
11 . where's the g's ? . . . . . . . . . . dizzee rascal & ugk
12 . old man . . . . . . . . . . neil young
13 . all the critics love u in new york . . . . . . . . . . prince
14 . heroin . . . . . . . . . . velvet underground
15 . planet caravan . . . . . . . . . . black sabbath
16 . wishful thinking . . . . . . . . . . sly & the family stone
17 . end of the night . . . . . . . . . . the doors
18 . zelbert moore . . . . . . . . . . dosh
19 . ark of the covenant . . . . . . . . . . the congos
20 . he say , she say . . . . . . . . . . sa-ra creative partners
21 . no ordinary love . . . . . . . . . . sade
22 . i want somebody . . . . . . . . . . the stooges
23 . nubian sundance . . . . . . . . . . weather report
24 . spotted . . . . . . . . . . hudson mohawke
25 . ur all i need (just like heaven) . . . . . . . . . . bilal
26 . play these games . . . . . . . . . . dwele
27 . inspiration information . . . . . . . . . . shuggie otis
28 . mambo sun . . . . . . . . . . t rex
29 . hi sun . . . . . . . . . . J*DaVeY
30 . creepin . . . . . . . . . . stevie wonder
31 . crystal ship . . . . . . . . . . the doors
32 . ride sally ride . . . . . . . . . . al green
33 . black cow . . . . . . . . . . steely dan
34 . can't turn me away . . . . . . . . . . sylvia striplin
35 . drugs . . . . . . . . . . talking heads
36 . all tomorrow's parties . . . . . . . . . . velvet underground & nico
37 . shh silent / it's abt that time . . . . . . . . . . miles davis

a star has been born today .
i can't wait to meet u sir elijah javier gomez !

20081119

c u r r e n t l y . . .



vintage frocks & hi waist bells from wasteland . . . bardot on friday nights . . . fresh n easy . . . 1974 . . . kitchen 24 at 4am . . . being domestic . . . 90 degree weather in november . . . faux fur & ripped tights . . . love songs . . . the occasional quiet night on the couch . . . will & grace re-runs . . . pirate flags . . . revealing conversation . . . hercules & love affair . . . bobby pins . . . my not so frequent french lessons . . . eagle rock . . . online scrabble . . . french vanilla tea w/ soy milk & honey . . . james franco . . . ebay vintage stores . . . other ppl's kids . . . the french version of "javier" . . . farfisa organs . . . trading martin quotes with mibbs . . . surfing & lurking . . . endless creative days & nights . . . long , deep sleep . . . saying it all , even when i don't know what i'm trying to say . . . yeah , all is well . . .

k i l l e r .





brandon flowers for GQ magazine .

20081117

JT makes me love snl . . .

20081115

shit on the bird .



today
i realized that i have way more to offer
than
i actually give myself credit for .

20081114

dear mr West :



me thinks u could use a day at the man-made beach . . .
for now
perhaps a song ?

20081113

g r o o v y .












courtesy of my darling friend christofer chin .

spr / sum 3 0 0 1 .


JCDC Versus LEGO from Four H on Vimeo.

jean-charles de castelbajac's digitally created LEGO fashion runway show .

g u i l t y . p l e a s u r e



space 15 twenty , a new concept store by Urban Outfitters . the Hollywood store will be a mix of shopping , art gallery , performance space , flea market , & cafe . coming soon . cant wait .

f i e r c e r .



gotta love coco rocha .

f i e r c e .



cop that .

dear Lupe :

perhaps i need a late pass , but :



jesses jackson , eh ? . . . like forreal ? . . . "tears of affirmation" from the man who wanted to cut barack's nutts off ? . . .

hmm
um
i guess .

u must have obviously missed this ?

or
maybe
we cynical rabble rouser musician types always have to prove how badass we are by adopting ridiculous socio / poli / cultural sentiments simply for shock value's sake ?

oooh , u don't feel like the rest of us , ur such a rebel . . . wow , so & so doesn't believe in whatshisname . . . jagoff , who cares what u think anyway ?

i'm talking to myself again .

anyway , back to Lupe :
next time
have a little more "eloquence in ur action" .

i'll attempt to do the same . . .

20081112

can i be frank ?



every black girl on earth wants / has to be edgy now .
dressing & looking like a dominatrixy-robot hybrid is all the rage .
u have to say the F word
&
wear spikes
&
scrunch ur face up
&
party like a white girl
&
say you've been listening to art rock since jr high .

booooorrriinng .

i'll never be the one to call somebody else a poser
but
i'm sick of summa the manufactured cool for the sake of "needing a change" .
either it's u
or
it ain't .
no need for name calling . u know who u are .
now that my unnecessary sense of entitlement has passed
on
to
the
next . . .

20081111

r . i . p



ms miriam makeba .

20081105

f i e r c e .

god bless america . . . almost . . .



i have yet to find the right words to express how i felt at 8pm pst last night .

all i could do was hold my chest like i was gasping for air . i was speechless . amazed . scared . near tears . all of these emotions were rushing thru me , it was unbelievable . young black ppl now have a great example of a strong , affluent black family
&
young black men now have a black male role model who isn't bouncing a ball , scoring a touchdown , or wielding a microphone .
change is slowly coming to america & i'm anxious to see how everything pans out .

on the other hand , i'm embarrassed by my state of residency , california , for accepting racial change , yet denouncing the right of legal marriage to gay & lesbian couples . sexism is just as sickening as racism , & i am appalled that so many people are still opposed to granting rights to every human being based on their differences in opinion & preference .

i guess we can't change the world in one night .

sigh . . .

onward
&
upward .

* off to catch a matinee showing of W *

20081104

happy election day !

i have just returned from my polling place .



i'm sure u can imagine how many crazy looks i got in this t-shirt . classic .

if u are american & eligible to vote i surely hope u exercise that right today .
to me , voting is not so much abt the person u choose , but the ability to participate in the democratic process .
ppl fought & died to give us the right to do so , & it's important to honor such struggle .
so
if u haven't received 50 billion mass texts & emails from friends since the break of dawn today reminding u to vote
or
if u have received 50 billion mass texts & emails from friends since the break of dawn today & still choose to not care
let me encourage u to do so by informing u that u can receive a free coffee / tea drink of ur choice from starbucks by showing them ur "i voted" sticker .


if that's not proper incentive i don't know what is *takes a huge gulp of the venti soy vanilla latte i have beside me* .

till tomorrow kids .
wonder if the topic will be god bless america ! or spain , here i come ! . . .
we soon shall see .

* t-shirt courtesy of TBG (Two Black Guys) . . . thx teron , diz , & adrian ! *

20081103

r . i . p



barack now has a guardian angel watching over him .
be free ms . madelyn dunham .

dear You :

sometimes i reveal too much for the sake of being completely honest
&
after i've said it all
i'm left with the sinking feeling that perhaps i've revealed too much
when all i simply meant to say is
"ur changing me for the better" .

argh .
simplicity doesn't always become me . . .