20080229

young & full of comedown .

. . . "they sing about the outskirts of the nighttime, when the lights go up & u might end up going home for bad sex with girls & boys you don't really want to be having sex with . they are more interested in the lows than the highs of drugs. they love a wrong relationship. because they are the children of utopian ravers, they understand the comedown better than the come up ."

how i love the tragically poetic portrayal of today's youth .
here's to wishin i had a time machine to zap me back to the summer of a few yester-years . . . ha . what am i sayin ?

20080228

busy is an understatement .

i barely have time
or
idle wits to sit
&
blog .
honestly
i almost destroyed this entire "movement" just the other day
cuz
who cares what i have to say anyway , yeah ?
hmm . . .
right now my mind is so occupied with my career
&
everything else has seemed to fall by the wayside .
i generally have that problem : everything is lovely , then i return to my busy reality , & begin to hide behind my work .
i'm still young , so there shouldn't be anything to apologize for .
music right now is my #1 mainly because it is changin my life for the better .
my financial status is changin because of it
but
will that also effect my sanity & happiness ?
what am i even sayin right now ?
it's barely 2pm & i've already had a full glass of champagne .
i have lots to celebrate today , as well as lots to accomplish . maybe i should put this "pen" to rest for a moment & emerge myself in the studio experience .
argh .
if u return to this page later
&
it has mysteriously disappeared
just um . . .
well .
nevermind .

20080222

feed ur head .

cuz it's friday .



hippie flip me , baby .

20080220

the sign .

2 nights ago i gave birth to the most beautiful baby girl in the world .

she popped into my life unnanounced .
one minute i was alone
&
before i knew it she was in my arms .
she didn't cry , she just looked up at me with the most beautiful brown eyes ,
&
then she smiled at me .
the most unbelievable feelin came over me , i wouldn't have believe she was mine if she wasn't the spittin image of my baby brother , who is the spittin image of me as a kid .
i held her so close to me ,
&
i felt this inner calm come over me . it was like everything in my life was perfect , like all of my inner turmoil was finally at peace .
i couldn't stop starin at her . i couldn't comprehend from where this beautiful little angel had come from .
when i breastfed her for the first time she looked up at me ,
smiled again ,
&
said ,
"it's so good mama" .
there was that unbelievable feelin again , somethin like a love so deep it was overwhelmin mixed with a hopefulness for things to come .

i woke up
&
i could still see her face .
i thought abt her all day
&
wondered what she was tryin to tell me . i was so moved by her that i couldn't help but cry . funny how such a beautiful vision can appear
&
change ur life in an instant . . .

dream interpretation books are random
&
abt as accurate as a daily horoscope , so i'm turnin to u .

what does my beautiful brown eyed happy baby represent ?

&
the first person to reply , "ur pregnant" will be promptly taken out back & shot .

20080219

um . . .



do i play anything other than the voice box ?
no .
so
why , might u ask , am i playin conga drums
for
sa-ra creative partners
like i'm ricky ricardo jr ? . . .

. . . vodka . that's why .

carry on .

20080211

it's all over .








the parties were fun .
the shows were awesome .
the vodka is comin outta my pores .
my eyeliner is smudged all over my pillows .
the balls of my feet hurt from excessively hi heels .
we did it up this year .
the hi light of my wknd was mtg perez hilton on the curb outside the wmg party
&
yellin , "hey jason !" at kardinal from the red carpet
&
gigglin with mr . nelson while bilal killed "sometimes"
&
gay boys galore in their underwear at our show with diesel
&
questo tellin sway & mtv news that we're "the ghetto eurythmics"
&
robert glasper tellin us how much lovin he gets to "no more"
&
me draggin kawai over to travis from gym class heroes to see how cute he is
&
seein all my philly friends
&
the 80 degree weather
&
thank god it's over cuz now i get to rest my party bones & get back to work .
oh .
just kiddin .
VEGAS babies i hope to see you at empire ballroom 2morrow .
as for u LA babies
thursday is for J*DaVeY & Sa-Ra lovers :




treat ur honey to somethin sweet & unique for valentine's day !

20080208

kinda sad .



but at the same time
how can u deny someone when they're desperate (or vulnerable) enough to beg for help ?
it's kinda indicative of how i feel abt homeless ppl . if someone has the guts to beg u for somethin they know they'll never give back that's just ballsy enough to get u a few bucks in my book . my dumb pride barely allows me to ask for what i need when i'm inna jam , so i'd prolly make a lousy homeless person . i digress . point of it all is i can't hate on the man for puttin this ad in the Variety . maybe he's at his rock bottom & in need of a fresh start . i mean , there has to be somethin he can do on television . flavor flav is still on tv aaaaand comin out with his own sitcom on mynetworktv . lord . i digress again . help out the haim . spare change , guest spots , house sittin , anything . he needs us .

wish us luck .

GRAMMY wknd is upon us
&
that means we shall descend to GRAMMY party hell
aka
open bar heaven . gotta love it .
"lets go craaaaaazay , lets get nuuuuuutts . . . "

20080205



did u ?

in J*DaVeYBaby heaven !

i was sick with stomach flu for what seemed to be a friggin eternity , & while i was incapacitated i received this song in my email inbox . come to find out they did a youtube video for their J*DaVeY remix as well . check it out :



this type of love is what keeps us goin . i can't say thank u enough . there's so much in store babies , so stay tuned . . .

20080203

first LA , & then comes VEGAS !

if u are an LA area J*DaVeYBaBy we'd love to see ur lovely faces (& cute booties) at this fun event on fri , feb 8 . underwear as outerwear optional .



as for u wonderful LAS VEGAS babies , come celebrate the return of the MAGIC TRADESHOW w/ myself , mikada , lovemade , URB , & missbehave on tues , feb 12 !



come come now
don't
be
shy !